We’ve had a few peeks at the upcoming album from Tourist Company, and the latest is a track inspired by a deeply personal life event, “‘Til We Disappear”. The story is a rollercoaster of emotion, so I’m just going to let singer-songwriter, Taylor Swindells tell it:
“This was the last song written for this record and it’s a little bit of an aside from the rest of the album. I wasn’t intending on writing any more songs for this project but life had other plans. I’d just come home from tour when my partner sat me down and told me she wasn’t pregnant – which was kind of a strange way to start a conversation. I remember my heart leaping into my throat not really being certain what was going to happen next. She told me that her doctor didn’t know what was wrong with her – she was eight weeks late and had taken two pregnancy tests herself, but the doctor’s test had come back negative. She was categorically not pregnant. This left two options that were both terrifying: either she could never have kids, or she had uterine cancer and we had no way of knowing if or how much it had spread. I wrote this song pretty shortly after that conversation, trying not to freak out but knowing that I loved her more than anything and that was never going to change.
Moments like that bring a lot of clarity to what actually matters. Without those terrifying events, it’s hard to know how deep anything in life really is. All I wanted right then and there was for her to know that I loved her no matter what and that was never going to change. Two weeks later after another doctor’s test we found out that she was actually just pregnant the whole time, which was the BIGGEST relief. We still don’t know what medically happened but we’re very happy to be parents now.
Even though this song wasn’t originally set within the world of the new album, it seemed like a fitting way to end a record about processing bad news. I felt all the stages of this album in those two weeks when our world was turned upside down, but the truth was, all that mattered was ‘I will love you ‘til we disappear’.”
The new album comes out early next year, but you might be able to catch a preview of it next week at the Biltmore, where they are opening for Rich Aucoin… on Hallowe’en!
